I've always wanted a big brother, ever since i was a kid.
Today on my way to school in the MRT, I observed a little girl and her older brother sitting just beside me. I was one station away from Bishan, from where I had to take another two more trains to reach school.
The little girl and her brother had a relatively large age gap; the girl was probably a lower primary student, and her brother an upper secondary student. Yet, despite their age gap, their relationship caused my heart to melt.
The little girl was playing with her brothers comparatively large hands. It intrigued me because most brothers would find their little sisters annoying. This brother didn't. He patiently and willingly allowed his sister to 'tease' him. He looked upon his sister with such compassion and tenderness. And his sister? When she gazed up at her brother, her eyes reflected admiration, respect and love.
That scene really made my heart melt. It was the sweetest sight I ever beheld, even sweeter than the sight of seeing two lovers. It reminded me of my yearning to have an older brother.
I'm the oldest sibling at home, and i often wonder what it would be like to be taken care of by an older sibling, instead of shouldering all the responsibilities.
Well, i guess this dream will forever remain unfulfilled.
Still, i really long to sincerely and lovingly call someone my Kor.
Jenny posted at 1:42 PM
(Literally) A Word of Advice
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I remember the last time i didn't take my mum's advice; i got hurt real bad.
Today, my dad gave me advice. To sum up his words of wisdom in one word, it is 'wait'.
Advice. I'd be a fool not to take it.
Obey your parents.
Jenny posted at 11:05 PM
Your Will Be Done
Friday, January 14, 2011
Hey! This is my first entry in 2011. I didn't update earlier cause i've been really busy. Oh, by the way, I'm 17 already! Okay, that was random and irrelevant.
Anyway, i collected my O level results recently. I am extremely, completely, utterly, absolutely satisfied with my results, and even more thankful to GOD for being so gracious, faithful and good. Man, even that is understatement. I'm more like, overjoyed, and God is way too awesome for words to describe. Any word used to describe God is belittling Him. Indescribable.
Also, i've submitted the JAE form yesterday. So now, i'm just gonna trust God for whatever school i get posted into. Wherever He places me, He has a purpose for me.
Moving away from the above topic.
A few weeks back, I told God about my desire of wanting to (officially) be in a relationship with a close someone. I was frustrated, cause i wanted it, but it wasn't the right time, and it may not even be what God wants. So in the end, i just surrendered my dream to Him, because it's not about what i want, but about what He wants (Luke 9:23). The things He wants for me are way bigger and way more awesome.
God also reminded me of this poem written by Russel Kelfer, called Wait.
Wait by Russel Kelfer
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried; Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied. I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . . And the Master so gently said, "Wait." "Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply. "Lord, I need answers, I need to know why! Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard? By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.
"My future and all to which I relate Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait? I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign, Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.
"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe, We need but to ask, and we shall receive. And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry: I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate, As my Master replied again, "Wait." So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut, And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . . and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign. I could shake the heavens and darken the sun. I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.
"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be. You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me. You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint. You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.
"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair; You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there. You'd not know the joy of resting in Me When darkness and silence are all you can see.
"You'd never experience the fullness of love When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove. You would know that I give, and I save, for a start, But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
"The glow of my comfort late into the night, The faith that I give when you walk without sight. The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee, What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee. Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true, But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.
"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me. And though oft My answers seem terribly late, My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."
(my own) Whether or not my dream comes true You are forever good And I will forever praise You
Jenny posted at 8:36 PM
2010 to 2011
Friday, December 31, 2010
Hey! I'm back after not posting for the whole month. Hehe.
Well, this month has been reeeeeeally packed, which is why i haven't been updating. Went for mission trip to Thailand (which was awesomeeee!), had Christmas outreach "Bag-teria" from 23 to 25 December, and then went for the VOICES Breakthrough Camp, which just ended yesterday. An action-packed month, but one that is very fufilling and meaningful for me.
And now the year 2010 is coming to an end. Looking back, God has been faithful throughout the year. He has given and taken. 2010 was a year of endings, beginnings, and continuations. God has been good, He is good, and He will always be good. I love my God!
So now, it's 10.45pm. Another 1 hour 15 minutes till 2011. 2010 was great. 2011 will be even better. If anything, there's one thing that i've learnt: put God first.
2011, here i come!
Jenny posted at 10:22 PM
If Goodbyes Were Only Until Tomorrow
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Man, my emotions are all out of sorts today. I can't believe I'm in distress just because ______. Okay, so maybe that is important to me, but it's a small thing. ...
It's a small thing, right? ...
Sigh. I am in denial. I'm trying to ignore it, telling myself that it's not as important as I think it is. Who am I kidding? It means a lot to me.
I wish goodbyes were only until tomorrow.
Jenny posted at 8:06 PM
Carpe Diem
Friday, November 19, 2010
Hey! O levels are over (ended on monday)!
So now, it's the holidays. There'll be loads of events coming up, especially in december. I don't know if I should be excited or not. Excited because, well, many fun stuff are gonna happen in december. Being a helper in the Mandarin ministry's camp (and getting paid for it), mission trip to Thailand, Christmas Outreach, Chirstmas Musical, VOICES breakthrough etc. Not excited, because everything is happening so quickly.
Sometimes I wish life would slow down a little, so that I can catch my breath. Living in a fast-paced world can really leave you tired and breathless. So much to do, so little time.
Which is why the phrase 'carpe diem' is very important to me now. It is something that I'm gonna apply to my life. Not that it means that I'm going to be an impulsive person, but it just means that i'm gonna make full use of every opportunity and every second that God gives me.
I will make this holiday a well-spent and meaningful one.
Carpe diem. Seize the day!
Jenny posted at 3:53 PM
Healer
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
O levels in 6 days!
I want O's to be over nowwwwww. It's so annoying. >:(
p.s. I miss you so much, I'm gonna die :(
He is the Ultimate Healer. I believe that He can and will heal you.
Jenny posted at 5:53 PM
the author
Jenny
17 years old 4 January is my special day (and don't you forget it!).
I'm a Christian, I love Jesus!
My loved ones and friends mean a lot to me.
I am deeply inspired by Brooke Fraser and Benny Prasad.
I can play the guitar and piano, and I absolutely LOVE 'em! :D And I love to sing :)
